Friday is hoping to finish this revision today!*
*I’ve got some notes to go back through and address, but at this point, the plan is to get Terminal Peace to my editor next week!
The 29th marks one year since we lost Amy to cancer. People say the first year is challenging, but I think 2020 has taken things a little too far… I’m supposed to be adjusting to the “new normal,” but how exactly is that supposed to happen when nothing is remotely normal? It’s just rude.
I still miss her. I still love her. I don’t expect either of those things to ever stop, regardless of what else happens. And she’s still a presence in my life. Not in a religious or mystical way. But we were married for 15 years, and friends for almost 15 more before that.
I know her so well I can hear her commenting on things. I can converse with her in my head, and I think I generally know what she’d say. Which is, I think, a good thing. I’ve occasionally had days where I felt overwhelmed, and I’d grumble about not knowing what to do, and sometimes I could imagine what she’d say or do, and it helped.
That’s pretty cool.
It’s been almost two years since we lived together. For the roughly nine months she was sick, she was either in hospitals or staying at her mother’s place, which was safer for her limited mobility. I still stay on my side of the bed out of habit.
A running theme with my therapist has been making sure I remember to keep living my life. Keep reaching out, keep looking for joy, keep doing things. I think I’ve been doing pretty well there, all things considered. I’ve been in an online D&D game, took a trip to the zoo with the kids, took my son to his first drive-in… We’ve also been doing video chats with Amy’s parents every week.
I don’t think there’s such a thing as being “over it,” but I’m proud of how well the kids are doing. And I think I’m doing well, overall. I’ve gotten back to work on writing, and should have Terminal Peace ready to turn in within the next week or two. I’ve been actively thinking about the future instead of being stuck in the past.
One of my biggest regrets is how much she and I took for granted. If I could change anything (aside from, you know, getting rid of the cancer), it would be to make more of an effort to cherish and take advantage of the time we had together before she got sick.
Looking back over the past year, I know I haven’t gotten everything right. I know I’ve dropped the ball sometimes. But overall, I think she’d be proud of me.
Friday is thinking of reading from either the Janitors books or from Fable: Blood of Heroes this afternoon (1:30 pm). Something light and fun…
NASFiC, the North American Science Fiction Convention, was originally going to be held this weekend in Columbus. That was before 2020 got its grubby, germ-filled hands on everything. So the con has switched to an online format. Happily, if I’m reading this correctly, that means everyone will be able to attend for free.
I’ll be doing two events as part of the convention.
I’m sad to not have the chance to get together with everyone in person, but I appreciate the work the convention has done to make this happen and give us an alternate way to geek out together.
The full NASFiC Schedule is on the website.
Now I just need to figure out what the heck I should read tomorrow afternoon…
I’m still waiting for IngramSpark to ship my proof copy of Tamora Carter: Goblin Queen. But in the meantime, I’ve got a couple of the Amazon proof copies sitting here taking up space. So…
I’ll give one copy (autographed, of course) away to a random newsletter subscriber.
I’ll also give a copy to a random Patreon supporter. This one will also be autographed, but there’s more. See, this is the copy I printed before I had the interior artwork from Leanna Crossan. To make up for that, I’ll illustrate those pages myself. It will be … well, it will probably be terrible. There’s a reason I do prose, not drawing. But I guarantee your book will be unique!
I’ll pick winners later this week, so you’ve got a few days to sign up if you’re interested.
Friday needs a really big book deal to afford this nearby castle…
Let’s start with Goblin Queen. I’ll be posting this to the Kickstarter site as well.
I’d been hoping to start mailing out books this month, but that was before I dealt with IngramSpark’s customer support and printing delays.
Today I received an email response to my trouble report about being unable to upload the cover file. A report I sent in on July 29. On the bright side, I was finally able to resolve the problem myself last week. With everything uploaded, I reviewed the electronic proof, then ordered a physical proof copy.
That’s when I got a pop-up informing me that due to COVID-related staffing and other issues, printing could take 2-3 weeks, and I might not be getting my proof until near the end of August.
Assuming there are no problems, I’ll be able to put in my big order at that point, and would hopefully get the rest of my books a few weeks later.
The alternative is for me to go ahead and order through Amazon’s KDP print-on-demand service. Amazon was much easier to work with and set up. I went through three rounds of changes, and have three different physical proof copies I received during the time I was fighting with IngramSpark.
But from what I’ve been told, IngramSpark prints a slightly higher quality book than Amazon, and I’d prefer my Kickstarter supporters get the best I can give them.
Everything else is ready. I’ve got the stickers, bookmarks autographed and ready, padded envelopes, labels, and an account at Pirate Ship that will let me print media-rate mailing labels from home. All I need are the books…
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Meanwhile, I’m hoping to turn in the manuscript for Terminal Peace to my editor by the end of the month. I’ve gotten through about 75% of this hopefully-final rewrite since early July, so I’m on track. But this part of the book has required a lot more reworking to get everything to fit, which has made for a frustrating and less productive couple of weeks.
This is part of the reason I’ve been scarce on the blog and social media and such. I know there are valid and legit reasons this book has taken me so long, but I really want to get it finished. I’m at that point where I’m close enough I can see the finish line off in the distance, which makes me want to sprint the whole way.
Unfortunately, I also need to do things like sleep and eat and all the rest. But I’m getting there. I just need to remember not to sprint so fast I take a spill…
Friday again? Didn’t we have one of these just last week?
Friday is halfway through rewrite number five.
